This week has been so excruciatingly rough in comparison to how relaxed my life usually is. I spent (almost) all day yesterday crying. I couldn't sleep until late last night because of how severe my left over crying headache was. The day before yesterday was prom, and while it was nice to dance, it reminded me of how crippled I am socially. I don't know what I'm going to do when I go to college/get a job. I just hope the pictures turned out alright for how much money I had to pay for them. A couple hours before my prom, I got the ticket from the county. Ironically enough, the one time I didn't buy a ticket for the VTA lightrail, I got caught. Terrible. I asked everyone I knew what would happen, and they said the most I'd have to pay was 60 bucks. That I could pay for by myself. It was 190. That I can't pay for. I don't have a job yet, and I won't get 190 by the time I need to pay the ticket even if I do get a job. I told my father yesterday and if you know me, you know how sensitive I am with him. That's one of the reasons I was crying yesterday. He wasn't pleased at all. I've had more relationship problems this week, especially in the last couple of days. I'm graduating next week as well, and as much as this sounds like good news, it's really not to me. It just means I have to shape up, and God, I don't want to. I love being lazy. I always have, but maybe that'll change. To be honest, I'm just as happy (if not happier) when I'm being productive. It's just easier to be lazy than to be productive, you know? Sorry for how teenager this blog is, but it happens. I am only sixteen. Most of all the stress that's been caused and the few thing that I've explained are mostly my fault either caused by my immaturity, irresponsibility, or laziness. These are all things I need to fix asap.
Let's see. What can I post that's entertaining... Oh. If you didn't notice already, scroll down a little bit and you'll see my list of favorite Pokemans. How nerdy, right? :)
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